Today is a special day.

October 15 is pregnancy and infant loss remembrance day.  Today is a day to remember all those precious babies that were born sleeping, the ones we carried but never had the chance to meet, those precious babies that may have been held but didn't make it home, and those babies that came home but didn't get to stay for long.   Today has not been the best day for me.   Even though my first pregnancy was short-lived, I have not forgotten about it.  It still hurts and I think of it often but I often too remember that God always has a plan for me.  I try not to question the outcome of things (even though sometimes it is extremely hard not to) but rather be thankful for everything he does provide me with.